Kaos

From the moment I stepped into the glittering world of drag, music became my heartbeat—a rhythm guiding me through laughter, tears, and the incredible transformations that defined my journey. As a professional drag queen and singer, I quickly discovered that my performances were not just about donning extravagant outfits and outrageous wigs; they became my lifeline, a beautiful escape from the shadows of my struggles with depression and addiction.

Growing up in a small town, I often felt out of place. The vibrant world of drag was a dream I didn’t know I could chase. It wasn’t until I found my love for performing that I felt a spark igniting within me. Music became the canvas upon which I painted my emotions. I remember my first performance. I felt a rush of energy that pulled me from the depths of loneliness. The lyrics transformed into my personal anthem, and I danced and sang like no one else was there but me.
However, the journey to finding my voice was far from straightforward. During the early years of my career, I encountered the heavy toll of addiction. The exhilarating buzz of the stage often faded into dark nights filled with escapism. I found myself trapped in a cycle of highs and lows—dancing from one euphoric performance to the desolation that came after. It was a dangerous balancing act, and I often felt overwhelmed.
Amidst this turmoil, music was my guide. During that chaotic time, the songs I sang became a refuge during my darkest days. It reminded me to release my worries, if only for a little while, and embrace the joy of performance. In the moments before I stepped on stage, I often played tracks that fueled my confidence and silenced the negative voices in my head. The exhilaration of singing, combined with the makeup and costumes, and my 2 Spirit indigenous culture became my therapy.
As I delved deeper into my craft, I sought help for my struggles. Therapy sessions were often accompanied by playlists filled with empowering songs. Artists like Lady Gaga, RuPaul, and Beyoncé inspired me to stand tall in my truth. Music became a tool for processing emotions, a bridge that connected my inner struggles to my outer performances. Every song I absorbed transformed into an extra layer of armor.
Through the years, I began to realize that my experiences could resonate with others. I started writing original songs that reflected my battles with mental health and addiction. Sharing my story through music became a therapeutic release, and with each performance, I could see the audience connecting to the rawness of my truth. People in the crowd would share their stories, and in those shared moments, I found a sense of purpose. My struggles were no longer just my own—they became a beacon of hope for others.
As I embraced myself and the art of my career. I flourished in ways I had never imagined. I began performing at larger venues, receiving accolades and love from fans who had followed my journey. The energy of the crowd became a powerful force, transforming the stage into a sanctuary where I could truly be myself. It was here, under bright lights and swaying hips, that I rediscovered my passion.
Ultimately, music has been the thread weaving me back together through the highs and lows. It has helped me craft an identity as a fierce queen and a resilient artist. With every song I belt out, I celebrate not just my triumphs but also the battles that shaped me. In this vibrant world of drag, I continue to sing, transforming pain into art—a celebration of authenticity and strength that echoes in the hearts of those who listen.
I will continue to sing, write, dance, and do drag as these are my art my passion and my life!!!
Thank you TD Ready Commitment and You Do You Foundation for your support in helping continue my dreams of music and become a Singing Drag Artist like I’m destined to be!!!